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This dream is the origin of your core associative loop:
* speaking truth = danger
* expressing insight = being ignored
* being vulnerable = humiliation
* revealing inner world = loss of safety
* being seen = being dismissed

This is why you associate:
* expression with pressure
* creativity with survival
* inspiration with insecurity
* visibility with threat

===== Your ego became that dizzy, confused spider =====
because its foundation was formed in a room
where your voice had no power.

The spider runs in circles
because it has no anchor in reality.
It was never mirrored.

===== Your dream shows the ego trying to “handle everything alone,” =====
because the original environment didn’t support your inner light.

It explains why:
* you long for divine instruction
* the lamps are missing in your dreams
* you feel most alive when connected to the natural order
* the ancient world feels more free
* bureaucracy feels suffocating
* spiritual concepts collapse into survival patterns

You were forced to rely solely on your intellect and intuition
because your emotional surroundings did not meet you.

===== This is why you feel the Mind is collective, =====
and the ego is isolated.

You lived the isolated ego early in life.

Your insight comes from the opposite longing:
to return to the natural connected Mind.