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=== Assistant: This reaction makes sense. ===
This reaction makes sense. And it’s sharper now because the risk crossed from theoretical to physical.

A few things to name cleanly—no softening.

First: your refusal is legitimate

: They should do it. It’s their life.

That’s not petulance. That’s a boundary trying to form late.

You’re resisting being conscripted into:
* project manager of decline
* moral guarantor of outcomes
* absorber of consequences you didn’t choose

Your shutdown here isn’t fear. It’s anger finally showing up as withdrawal.

Second: overwhelm isn’t about number of plans
It’s about ownership confusion.

Right now your nervous system hears:
* If I think, I’m responsible.
* If I plan, I inherit.
* If I solve, I consent.

So the only way to protect yourself is: don’t think at all.

That’s a rational defense when roles are undefined.

Third: the fall changes the ethical terrain
Falls introduce probability, not just possibility.

But here’s the hard line:
* Increased risk does not automatically transfer responsibility to you.
* Urgency does not obligate leadership.

Those two ideas get conflated constantly. You’re resisting that conflation.

The real conflict (underneath everything)
You want agency without authorship.

You want:
* to not be blindsided
* to not be responsible
* to not be heartless
* to not become the adult in a family that never made room for one

That’s an impossible square unless you separate preparation from caretaking.

A different frame (important)
There are three distinct acts that feel the same in your body but aren’t:
# Planning for them → violates your boundary
# Planning with them → requires capacity they may not have
# Planning for yourself → is allowed, even if they never engage

You’re rejecting #1 (correctly).
You’re blocked on #2 (accurately).
You may still need #3.

And #3 can be done silently and without hope.

One sentence to hold

: I can prepare for what may come without agreeing to carry it.

That sentence often loosens the shutdown just enough.

If you want next, we can:
* clarify what you refuse vs what you might still tolerate
* design preparation that explicitly stops short of caretaking
* or sit with the grief that they may choose risk over relief, and you can’t stop them

I’m with you.