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=== Assistant: Yes. ===
Yes. This is the bind.

You’re not shutting down because you’re avoidant.
You’re shutting down because you see the clock and they refuse to look at it.

What you’re carrying:
* You’re metabolizing anticipatory grief in real time.
* They are avoiding it by staying inside the choreography.
* When you feel urgency, they feel threat.

So the moment you want to plan, their nervous systems read it as death-adjacent.

That’s why it scares them.

A planning meeting wouldn’t just be logistics.
It would collapse the meaning system that’s keeping them upright.

Important reframe
You’re not late.
You’re early.

And being early in grief is lonely.

Why you shut down instead of pushing
Because pushing would:
* make you the harbinger
* force them into a conversation they can’t survive intact
* turn love into rupture

So your system chooses freeze over harm.

That’s not weakness. It’s protective intelligence.

The tension to hold (without resolving today)
* Truth: planning will be necessary.
* Truth: planning too early can be violent.
* Your peace comes from foresight.
* Their peace comes from deferral.

Both are legitimate. They just can’t coexist fully.

A gentler third path (not a “meeting”)

Think micro-orientation, not planning.

Examples:
* “If something unexpected happened, who would you want me to call first?”
* “Where do you keep the important papers?”
* “What helps you most on bad pain days?”

One question. Neutral tone. No future stacking.

Each answer builds a map without naming the cliff.

For you, right now
Name the grief silently: This is already beginning.
That acknowledgment often loosens the shutdown just enough to breathe.

If you want, we can:
* design questions that gather future-critical info without triggering them
* distinguish your grief from theirs so you don’t carry both
* or talk about what happens if planning never fully happens

I’m here.